Let the rain fall on my shoulders
And let the sun shine upon my face
All i want to find is truth
And not recieve disgrace
I will travel over mountains
And cross rivers far and wide
All in search of the truth
Revealed when you decide
Before i give you one more kiss
Before i hold your hand
I want to hear the truth
And that is where i stand
Why don't you caress me
Why don't you advance
When i tell you the truth
You just stand there in trance
Tell me what has changed
Why do i always advance
Instead of thinking of the truth
Give your heart a chance
Just stop being shy
Don't think of it much
Your heart gives you truth
Make yo
Phantom train
Let me ride
Let me rest
My broken stride
Let me on
With the dead
I will not fear
I will not dread
Weary souls
On one way ride
Just let me cross
To their side
My path was long
And never ending
Filled with people
Condescending
Tore me apart
Limb from soul
And left my heart
Hard as coal
Left my gaze
As cold as ice
They took my all
What made me nice
So phantom train
Let me board
And I will play
My lonesome chord
Reminiscing
Of the days
Filled with laughter
Filled with praise
Then one day
All went to hell
The very first moment
That I fell
In pain, destroyed
Left all alone
Looked around
Saw only
Person, person, in the mirror
Looking back at me
Saying, saying, to everyone
That which sets you free
Looking, looking, everywhere
For your one true soul
Dark, dark, is your heart
Dark as one lone coal
Time, time, slowly fleeing
You and you alone
Judging, judging, everyone
From hypocrite's throne
In your eyes, I grow so shy
To the point, I wish to die
Because I lose all my way
I'm lost in thought for what to say
All that I know how to do
Is treasure those moments few
When I hold you in embrace
Then my heart and mind begin to race
Afraid to breathe, afraid to move
Not knowing how, my love to prove
Afraid to hold your loving hand
Weak in the knees and cannot stand
Afraid of knowing what to say
Always fearing the end of the day
Afraid to kiss and to hold
Afraid that I may be too bold
Hopefully I'll get it right someday
But until then, please just stay
There i see
In the dark
What set her free
Is the mark
From the blade
Out of her stash
But now she fades
From what was rash
And harsh and fast
And blind to all
What's in the past
Made her fall
So far down
She can't survive
Lost her crown
Can't stay alive
Insert the needle
Inject the pain
All for fear
Of nothing to gain
Swallow your death
In Amber's glass house
Distort all reality
Til' reality's doused
Doused by the blood
From the ill-fated stitch
Sewn with blind anger
From the cold and blind bitch
Now I stand here
For all the world to see
Waiting for my death
To come and set me free
Please do not cry
Please don't be sad
Please know I'm here
And will never get mad
I'll always be here
In good times or bad
All I wish for you
Is to not be sad
Whether trouble is there
Ever present in life
Taken away
By the way of a knife
Or it may be non-existant
And all may be a show
But no matter what will happen
I will never be your foe
So please do not cry
Please don't be sad
Please know I'm here
And will never get mad
Please know I love you
And I always will
Even if you hate me
I'll love you still
Flowers for her dead son there
In vacant lot near mine
As if no one would ever care
Neither is doing just fine
Son died from the mortar shell
In blood soaked trench in June
Cross marks spot, where he fell
Like others, he died too soon
Broken heart he has left
And haunting dreams ensue
Of how his painful, painful death
And grief he has imbued
For mother is all alone
No father, husband, or son
Where they all once shone
Is now replaced with the sun
Three graves there, on the hill
All surround my own
All that's left is something nil
And an agonizing, grieving groan
Joy is gone
Filled by pain
Always to lose
Never to gain
Happiness destroyed
Rage filled tears
What you'll unleash
Is what you fear
Mask's are on
Hide's the depression
Never comes off
To reveal a confession
Pain filled tears
Lines drawn with rage
Lost in depression
Trapped in a cage
You make everything hard for us
When we try to fix it
All you love to do is fuss
And throw a hissy fit
Criticizing everyone
Is that your life goal
Ruining all the fun
You have the empty soul
You get angry at your friends
Even more at those that try
Try to give a hand that lends
But you love to see them cry
You love to wear the masks
To hide your second face
Taking on the bigger tasks
Of trying to embrace
While everyone is blind to you
I see how you are
No wonder your friends number few
All the rest you have scarred
Pushing us away from you
It's your own damn fault
Picking at the wounds, all new
And pouring in the salt
There i sit thinking of you
And treasure those moments few
Hopeing what i feel is true
Only Six Words Away
Everday is lost in your eyes
For they know not how to lie
They say they're more beautiful then the skies
Only six words away
Everday, a little i die
Because every time you walk by
Can't build courage to even try
Only six words away
Until a different day
Every night i'll pray
For enough courage to say
Only six words away
For all the world to see
Six words to set me free
Will you go out with me
Only six words away
Your mother forbids
But your heart disobeys
They think your just kids
But you know what you say
You love him til' the end of life
No matter when or how
Even if it's a draw of the knife
You still love him now
But love is not a one way path
And he has always loved you for you
That love cannot be explained by math
And for you it's always new
For five seconds of glee
There is five hours of pain
This life you cannot flee
You only stand to gain
As every little meet
Is a break in your painful life
A life that's not neat
When you live by the way of a knife
But your sad and broke heart
Should not give up hope
And you should never
The coldness grasped our hands
As they meet with a message of love
We watch as the moon covers land
And gaze at the stars above
Your fingers seek for mine
As the eerie silence grows long
I say everything is fine
But you know something was wrong
You came and made me better
As we sat and talk for the night
Stuff you can't say in a letter
But in my darkness you bring the light
Sometimes we can be very bold
But you are the one i love
Because you are the one i hold
As we gaze at the stars above
All masochist play
That evil tune
That dark, evil ray
That devours all soon
With blades in hand
They cut past away
Set fire to the land
And make everyone pay
Few know of their plot
Few live to tell
For they die on the spot
Or fall under the spell
But they are not known
For they all wear mask
Love that is sewn
Is gone with the past
They all have a king
That lives with the pain
Of hearing them sing
Of nothing to gain
So they all live to die
As they cut with their blade
The earth fills with crys
As they soon feel the fade
So the masochist dance
As they deal pain for joy
With knife or a glance
Girl or boy
They put on t
As I sit here every morning
Time slowly screams your name
For if what you think is true
Then I'm the one to blame
Blame for all the pain and torture
Blame for no true love
Blame for your empty soul
Your only soul above
Above the earth, lies the heavens
And opposite is my hell
Which is where your soul shall gather
If you choose to sell
Sell your life like theirs
Theirs deserve no name
Sell it shorter then mine
For I'm the one to blame
Blame for all, this so called love
Which I know not of thee
But if you never talk to me
Your death won't set you free
Sewn with lies
That made me sore
And sung the song
The song of lore
This rug i use
Is used no more
To keep me warm
At my core
For you i shall
Take off the floor
Throw it out
Of the door
Burn it with truth
Throw it away
All because
Of what you say
In my darkness
You brought that ray
That made me live
For one more day
And to my monsters
Kept at bay
You have taught me
How to pray
THANK YOU
Wind finally crosses
The prairie that's down hill
From the ocean that tosses
And can never be still
The ship on the verge
Too far from their dock
At once it will merge
With floor littered with rock
Men jump for their lives
To their freezing hell
While their children and wives
Ring darkness's bell
Heard no other ship
The death of their brother
As their sails come to rip
And the water to smother
Every light is dimmed dark
Every man floats alone
They have left no mark
Of where they once shown
Corner to corner
Edge to edge
Nose dive off
Delirium's edge
Hit the ground running
From intolerable past
Pass by friends
Running too fast
Pass by family
Hell to me
Blind me with rage
So I cannot see
Night is day
Day is night
Cant figure out
Wrong from right
Demons or angels
Cannot decide
Abysmal soul
Is where I confide
Can't stop now
End in sight
Can't tell difference
Is it dark or light?
Joy is gone
Filled by pain
Always to lose
Never to gain
Happiness destroyed
Rage filled tears
What you'll unleash
Is what you fear
Mask's are on
Hide's the depression
Never comes off
To reveal a confession
Pain filled tears
Lines drawn with rage
Lost in depression
Trapped in a cage
Things have changed between us
They will never be the same again
In fact I never want them to be, plus
It just isn't worth all the same pain
And lies that have come between us
There is hurt and betrayal between us two
That may well never be erased or ended
We both kept secrets and lies sad but true
For my part I hope your heart has mended
That you can move on and be happy too
(But you should know one more thing)
I wish you all the best in your life
Pray for you and your family's happiness
I hope that your life has a little less strife
That you find satisfaction and success
Though we will never share the others life
You think I
Short Update: It's been forever since i've been here, but i've been wanting to upload some stuff to my facebook that i did, so i figured i would put it here. I took some art classes to bolster my portfolio for when i apply for architecture grad school, and i'll be putting up some of the fun stuff up here...now to find a giant scanner...
Well the title says it all. Thought i was dead or something did ya eh? so did i. my ocmputer got spyware out the ass so i couldnt do anything and before i got the spyware i played my game all the friggin live long day so that explains my abscence. anyways, just felt like saying im back, and i unno if ill continue with my poetry but it's a thought. i know this is short but i have alot more to do online since i just got it back.
2 new poems added, and one is unfinished and untitled. i can always go back to add more or take away but for now im stopping there. The other was just when my brain exploded. Anyways, school is starting in a week or two so i can gain more fuel for my writings as the drama esplodes with all the freshmen comeing in hehehehe. Well i'm very happy, as nothing bad has happened lately and now that i said something, it'll probably be jinxed. Well off i go again to play my game. Hugs to all :hug:
~The Muffin Man~